Stupid, stupid, stupid

So, yes, I once again opened my big mouth and told a guy that I liked him. When will I ever learn that this does NOT work! Do I have to be beaten over the head to learn not to do this??? The thing is I actually like this guy, I really think we connect. UGH, why do I torture myself like this. I am an idiot. The worst part is, he's my trainer, so I need to see him twice a week and feel stupid. Hopefully he will suffer from selective amnesia and not remember that I told him! I should just accept the fact that I suck at getting guys and give in to just being single. At least there's less stress in that! I can't reject myself! Still searching for a job, need to get out of my family's business, my stress level is beyond measure. I had a phone interview with a staffing agency and a meeting with a recruiter. Hopefully this will lead to some interviews. Both interviews are for working for a staffing coming, never done it before but I seem to be getting feedback that it is a good fit for me. So only time will tell. To make my life more stressful I have a month full of family stuff to get through. Including a trip to Las Vegas where I need to spend time with my evil sister in law for 3 days! G-d I can't wait for june. I need a week off to decompress before my head pops off! Till later.